Went out with an old friend for dinner. We dated briefly a couple of years ago. It was fun going out without any expectations and talking about our pathetic dating experiences.
Also heard from my ex, she wants to re-kindle things. At this point I just don't have those feelings for her anymore. I tried to be a friend to her but at this point I don't think that is possible. She just can't cut the cord.
Personal blog for a middle aged man contemplating his life and trying to find love, happiness, and his way after turning 40.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Interesting date
I met a lady who I have been chatting with for about a month. We met for drinks and it appears that her divorce is not final. She came across as being very angry with her soon to be ex-husband, which I can understand. I get the distinct feeling that she would reconcile if he was willing.
About half-way through the date she basically told me she really just wants a friend-with-benefits. A year or two ago I would have jumped on that train in a New York minute. Right now I just don't want to play with that kind of fire. I have done that before and in the end sex does something to a woman, they get emotionally involved and in the end want more than a friendship. I think at this point I will probably shoot myself later because it has been a few months for any kind of physical intimacy. The problem is I would not consider it an intimate encounter, it would just be physical sex and that is not what I am looking for right now.
About half-way through the date she basically told me she really just wants a friend-with-benefits. A year or two ago I would have jumped on that train in a New York minute. Right now I just don't want to play with that kind of fire. I have done that before and in the end sex does something to a woman, they get emotionally involved and in the end want more than a friendship. I think at this point I will probably shoot myself later because it has been a few months for any kind of physical intimacy. The problem is I would not consider it an intimate encounter, it would just be physical sex and that is not what I am looking for right now.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Not bad, but not great
This time I met with someone that I had known from a couple of years ago. We re-connected again and decided to have dinner together. We met and had a decent conversation, but the conversation was very one-dimensional from her. Now I remember why we have not hung out in a while. I get the distinct impression she is very goody-goody and I hate to say it boring. I am not one to go out and party all night, but you have to at least want to have some fun and put some spark into your life. Her life seems to be about church groups and her nephews little league baseball. Again I love my church and do tons of sporting events with my children, but I can talk about other things besides that. Have a life at least.
Sad thing is we ended up kissing goodnight. I could tell she wanted to kiss, and it was awkward. I could tell she was into it, but there was nothing there for me. She told me she wanted to see me again and I said I would call, but now I really don't know if I want to. Have to let this one go easy.
Sad thing is we ended up kissing goodnight. I could tell she wanted to kiss, and it was awkward. I could tell she was into it, but there was nothing there for me. She told me she wanted to see me again and I said I would call, but now I really don't know if I want to. Have to let this one go easy.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Onto the next contestant
Ok, so here we go with the next date. Again same MO, meet at Starbucks, interview them and hope that it works out. Again nothing wrong with the person, just not getting that spark. Maybe I shouldn't be meeting at a Starbucks, but I don't want to fork over a ton of money on these first dates, I have been burned before.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
A First Date-finally
Tonight I went out on a date for the first time in a long time. We had been chatting and just decided to meet for coffee at a Starbucks. Overall she looked like her picture on the profile, but when we met there just wasn't any chemistry. Overall nothing to complain about. I guess I am just going to be really picky at this point and find what I really want.
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